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By Hannah Gerber April 25, 2014

Teenage Runaway

Illustrated by ALI HASSANEIN


Today I’ve decided that I believe freedom and emptiness are the same thing

The baseboards of adulthood, of this empty loft. I moan as I stare at this wall like a 15 year old staring at a piece of modern art, passively trying to find whatever it’s all hyped up to be.

After an hour of sitting here, I still can't tell you what colour the wall is. I’ve been told it's white; if you asked me the colour I would tell you white. Not because that’s what I see; during this hour I’ve seen nothing at all.

They say it’s that state of being when you’re disconnected from anything within arm’s reach. The state of being that causes car accidents, break ups, or in my case absolutely nothing. Still, I think that the only safe place for me to be is in this empty room.

Today I’ve decided that I believe that happiness and illusion are the same thing

My eyes are heavy but my legs aren’t tired and something about the white of this wall keeps me here. It’s vast, empty, untouched. Like another opportunity. So I pick up a marker, and somehow writing this feels like taking advantage of it.

Wasted: overrated, underestimated. Pulled up along the freeway of all that we anticipated. Could we let go of the bigger meaning? Could you waste me, like I’ve wasted you? Save us from believing, from the bigger meaning?

Wasted: it’s been tasted-- it’s how I’m marinated. Absorbed by all that I consume, not challenged by what I have to lose.

Light another. Lips are dipped in sugar. You don’t have to put me in the mood. Like I said: I’ve nothing here to lose. Waste me like I’m wasting you.

About the author

Based in Montreal, Hannah is a passionate writer and English literature student with experience in both creative writing and journalism.  While leaving her written legacy, Hannah aspires for all pieces to be born within walls of rich mahogany.

About the illustrator

Ali Hassanein is a 20 year-old illustrator and painter. His artwork focuses largely on portraiture and human figures, and is made primarily for posters and cover artwork.

He has created posters for Dawson College, The US Consulate in Montreal, Moksha Yoga and Velovite, as well as various independent shows and projects.

His work is predominantly digital but is created by a similar process as traditional oil painting, pushing pixels like pigments.


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